1961. Badger Books.
This has been on my bookshelf for decades.
The cover is an absolute classic. A giant beaver threatens a cowering couple. The cover, almost alone, is why this book fetches extremely high second-hand prices. Amazon currently has only one copy, with an asking price of NZ$445. I read a review (more of a summary of the story) where the guy had paid US$180 for it.
The plot signals a weakness in that the writer didn’t think the idea of a factory blelching nuclear-contaminated waste into a river, mutating the beavers into gigantic size, was enough. They felt it was necessary for the beavers to have Extra Sensory Perception, with the power of instanteneous teleportation.
The plot isn’t enough, so Bron Fane (Lionel Fanthorpe) has to pad it out with tortuously added digressions. For example, chaper 11 – Attack! – opens with the victims-to-be, men in a canal barge – spending pages telling each other about the history of barges. After all that, they’re dispatched by a beaver in a paragraph or two.
The writing is flat. Multiple chapers start with formula of who is in the room: Chapter 12 “Broghan, Sinclair, Colrayn and the miricale boy were comfortably installed in Colrayn’s living room.” and Chapter 10: “Broghan, Barney, Colrayn and Eddie Sinclauir were talking to the hospital superintendent.”
To be truthful, I’m not reading it. I stopped after Chapter 12. I started reading it for the so bad it’s good fun, but there was no charm. It was merely lame. I collect pulp fiction, but this one I’d be prepared to sell – I’d be satisifed at half the going rate on Amazon!
Dickens Field, London
Carlington Black, 2017
to shaking young ear
Black hair, wrapped for Christmas
In Dickens Fields
Red nails, Black puffer, Dark brows.
Sobbing at digital fragments
Of spoken, news, transmitted.
Boyfriend gone, Mother found, Brother dead
We, We, undead
Impervious, Imperious, Lunching
In Lant Street
Where Dickens boarded
In shadow of the Shard
Daddy in Marshalsea
His mother cried
Up early for washing
Two centuries of shit
Circling, Coriolous, clockwise
A smartphone buzzes
In the middle of it all
She staggers to park bench
Fifty metre bitter halo
Solitude surrounded by
Revving courier van,
Wandering student, shiftworker, job hunter
No sobbing wanted heard
But really, our discomfort
Is cold comfort, can’t repress
the sobbing, a few words
Sobbing, Bare words, Sobbing,
What will she do when
she puts the phone down?
It’s raining in Jerusalem
The sibilant storm welcomed
to this waiting place
silent, without judgement.
Invited to nestle among
tree clotted sheets
knotted at Mataimoana
Soak shoes off path
haste to reach Saint Josephs.
Where the brass knob sticks
damp entry to
the storm’s clumsy pash.
A door finally gives in
to desiccated narthex,
Aubert’s consonant shrine.
East wall, the silent chancery
scowls away the ersatz
To wander the soaked lawn
where carved rills of khaki water
run toward a weed clumped paddock.
Where Mary stands in
blue linen gown
and thick leaved rhododendron
glade. No sky no horizon.
Toes like writing fingers.
Nails flat and half mooned.
They never wrote a day in their life.
Washed clean again anyway.
Bishop Cullinane planted
In honour she never wanted
Now stunted. Out of place in these shadows.
Aubergine lichen licks the branches.
her inside ankle.
The slip was coned off for safety, though we could all see it was there. Unmistakable, even in the gloom of storm.
I watched from the ditch at the edge of the road. Next to me a culvert spouted rainwater, blooded with soil and oil.
Grim-faced cops stood manfully in front of their red and blue beacons of authority. They watched a house teeter 10 metres above a newly torn edge. They stood by. They waved cars back. The drivers’ faces milled, unsure how to retreat into the line backed up behind them.
Rain spat from the sky. The slip shifted and slumped. Rills of water ran across the mush. Clumps of rock and grass topsed across the mound of mud, plopping thickly onto the tarseal. Dense water ploughed mud down the chunky slope.
I could see the outline of what had called me here. The scream when the hillside first fell away. That shriek had subsided. The first breath taken, it now exhaled a moan, issuing its bearings on the wind.
Rain sluiced soil off pale corpulent flesh. She was still fetally curled, refusing to react to the cold truth which slapped bitterly at her side. Her splindly limbs wrapped around her abdomen, winding it into a circle to touch her mouth. It was crinched shut – little pincers folded tightly at the corners. She squeezed her eyes shut.
I called to her. Reassured her I was there.
She pulsed, dislodging a cascade of mud and crumbled rock. She slid mightily, pulpy, with it. She avalanched across the orange cones. Swamped the cops. Their florescent jackets fell silent beneath black mud.
I sheltered under the culvert pipe as the tide of wet mud flowed over the road’s edge into the gorge.
She flowed with it. Her tight muddy skin wiped slickly over my hunched shoulder and head. Down the slope.
She cried out for her shepherd. But there was nothing I could do for her. They trusted me when I bade them lie down. I told them not to fear. Though they should have, in this eroding country. My throat constricted. I wiped at my eyes. The others would have heard the scream, like a dream in their deep earthy sleep. I will need to reassure them. We shall all rise. But it is not yet time.
By Carlington Black
The kooshie of keys slipped from Haiden’s fingertips, and rattled once on the steel grate before jumbling into the drain.
He dropped his knees into the damp gutter, in the middle of the supermarket carpark, closing time. Tilting his head, Haiden could only make out the faint glimmer of still water.
“Shit. Shit. Shit.”
Adjusting his head allowed weak overhead LED light into the cavity, but it was still gloomy. Haiden could only make out more water. He couldn’t see keys.
His eyes adjusted, and a shape resolved into focus. A shape in the surface of the water. The shape of a human face.
Haiden recoiled in fright, heart banging paused lungs. He twisted around warily. Fluorescent light arced wanly outwards from a single pole. A couple of cars bunched near the supermarket doors in pattering rain. The lit windows of the curry place were misted.
He needed those keys. So he steadied himself, and squinted through the gaps from a distance.
Yes, it was a face. Definitely a face. An adult male. Youngish, but heavily creased with lines of pain. Eyes crunched closed. A face vaguely recognised. God, who was it?
Haiden squished fingers through the grade and tried to wrest it upwards. It didn’t budge.
He pushed his face against the grate again.
The man was bearded, which along with his lips and teeth, were peppered with grit. Long hair stranded his face, tangled with sticks and plastic.
The man’s facial folds crinkled slightly. The eyes blinked once.
“Hey, are you alright?”
The mouth changed shape, very slightly from downturn to straight. He was alive.
“Mate, can you hear me?”
“What happened? Are you okay?”
“Hey, wait there, I’ll get help.”
“Yes, just wait. We’ll get you out.”
“What? Who are you?
“In a drain?”
“What are you doing?”
“I thought you were dead.
“I mean, just now. Someone dead, just now.”
“Eh? Hey, it’s okay mate. Take it easy. We’ll get you some help. Is there someone I should call?”
“Eh? That’s a little weird. Just chill. I’ll be right back.
“Who are you, really.”
The water circled past the man’s temples. He lifted his head a little out of the water. “What?”
“Who are you… really?”
“In a drain? In a supermarket carpark? In Naenae?”
“Can you name another place?”
“Somewhere I don’t live. Shit, look, this is stupid. You’re not Jesus. He died like thousands of years ago.
“The Son of man cometh at an hour when ye think not.”
“You got me there. But you’re not him. You’re someone else. A guy. In a drain. In a closing supermarket. In the rain. With my fucken car keys. Did you see them?”
The bearded man rolled his eyes. “Yes. They hit my face.”
“Um. Sorry about that.”
“Are they there. Can you get them?
“No. Arms are pinned. And my feet.”
“Well, can you look around, where did they go?”
“I heard them tumbling in the current.”
“Which way did they go?”
“Eh? Which way is that?”
The bearded man’s eyes rolled upwards. “Toward Buddha.”
“Okay. Thata way. Look. Wait there. I’ll get help.”
Haiden ran at a crouch, following the direction of Jesus’s eyes, and a vague line indented in the tarseal. He reached another drainage grate and scooped to peer into it.
Looking straight back at him from under the grate was a slightly pudgy Asian man with eyes the colour of overwashed denim.
“Is there something you need?” the man said.
“My keys? They might have washed down here.”
“Is Jesus tomfooling again?”
“Was that really Jesus?”
“I see no point in disputing it.”
“And who are you then – Buddha?”
“Never heard of you.”
“Fame is insignificant.”
“I’m looking for my keys – I’ve lost them.
“You only lose what you cling to.”
“I wish I’d clung onto the bloody things tighter. Is the water rising quickly. Are you okay?
“Water does not wet the lilly.
“It does if it rains. Look, you didn’t answer. Are you okay?
“I rest among the tumult like the giant tree.”
Haiden was lit by soft halogen of car lights. His eyes crinched into them.
He rose off his knees and crouched nonchalantly on his haunches until the car passed.
He sank to his knees again and peered at Buddha.
“You’re beginning to piss me off. All these fucking sayings.”
“You will not be punished for your anger; you will be punished by your anger.”
“Right, fuck you then.”
Haiden spotted a gutter at right angles to the Buddha grate and rushed along it.
The gutter ended in the furthest corner of the carpark. Black sediment had accrued along its length. A dead blackbird flattened against the grey concrete. The last few metres of gutter were cracked and uneven, and disappeared into a large puddle accumulating in the rain.
A line of dying shrubs lapsed along the supermarket wall, which itself seemed to curve down into the corner.
Haiden waded into the cold black water up to his ankles. He sifted through the muck blindly with his feet. The soles rasped over a ribbed form – a grate.
He couldn’t see anything in the gloom of rain, dark and deep muddy water. He bent over drawing nearer to the water’s surface – though his mother had said always to bend at the knees.
He didn’t bother to pull up a wet sleeve. He pushed his arm into the water and fingered around where his feet had been. They touched the raspy surface of rusted iron. He slipped his fingers into the grate slits and pulled upwards. The grate came up with his hand heavily, but easily. Haiden heaved it clumsily at the dead bushes.
He stabbed his hand into the drain hole. It was filled with what felt like loose slimy mud, gravel and plastic. He swept his hand through the fetid debris, feeling with his fingers for something that could be his keys.
The action freed up a blockage, and the large puddle began to rush into the drain.
A thin suckle pitched upwards from the hole.
Haiden heard a clink; the very particular frequency of his five keys and plastic fob.
He dove into the wide concrete well, flailing in the water, frantically scratching at the mud trying to reveal his keys.
From his grate, Buddha howled: “If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.”
From his grate, Jesus howled: “Inasmuch as you did it to one of my brethren you did it to me.
Haiden’s body was now deep in the drain. The soured heavens ran over his face, clattering over his lips and curling into his nose.
Water flagellated his cheeks with cigarette butts, broken glass, rusty nails and engine nuts.
The damp keys started Haidens’s car first time. Jesus drove. Buddha navigated.
Jesus smirked “Why is it that the Son of Man must suffer much and be rejected?”
Buddha pointed for Jesus to turn west and sighed. “Life is dukkha.”
Jesus whooped and whacked the steering wheel with the palm of his hand. “But at least you’re the fun kind of arsehole.”
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Mary Littletheaton sidled the car as close as she gambled against the wet bank of the narrow hillside road. Too close and she scraped the left hand side. Not close enough and a passing car scraped the right hand side.
She was already having a jolly debate with herself, as usual, between the fitness of taking the path, or the return on investment in using the cable car. As usual, the funicular had already won.
Mary turned right, taking the path to the funicular, and immediately felt an eerie apperception that something was different. A few steps more and she encountered a pathway dotted with a dozen notebooks-worth of hand-pencilled paper scraps.
A few steps more and she encountered the man responsible.
He was sitting in the entrance to the cable car; by a little wooden shelter which looked as if it had once lived many decades alongside a disused railway line.
He was about the size and shape of a post box, and more so as he was currently crouched on his haunches. He was clad only in a thule, a length of cotton wrapped around his waist and between his crotch. His bare body was begrimed. Purulent lesions dotted the loose cheeks of his exposed bottom.
“Hello.” Mary chirped with a smile. She was like that. Diminutive, but with relentlessly sunny disposition. Fazed by nothing.
The man turned his face to her. Frowning.
“Hello,” Mary repeated.
“Salaam,” said the man gravely.
“Are you in need of something?”
The man poked a stick at a small circle of smouldering notepad embers in front of him.
“Are you cold?” It was early spring, and a chilly southerly breeze kept lines of fire twisting through the black paper flakes.
“I am warmed by the faith of hajj.”
“Oh yes, I like a good evening walk as well. Only, tonight I was going to…” Mary pointed gingerly at the cable car rail. The cable car unit itself was at the other end of the line outside the house.
“Fellow pilgrim, you are welcome to share this humble shelter” the man said.
“I’m okay thanks. My, um, shelter, is up the hill.”
“Have you been waiting long?” the man asked the fire.
“Er, I’ve lived in my house for a while now, yes.”
“You are indeed a true believer. Come, join me. Tell me how you have fared.”
“Not right now, if that’s okay. Dinner won’t fix itself. Are you hungry?
“I hunger only for the truth, like you Madam.”
“I can bring you down a snack.”
“I am on a holy fast until the golden chariot appears.”
Mary thought of the funicular. She would have to step through the shelter to get to the button to call it down from the house. The man crouched in the middle of the shelter. A soft floppy sack and a roll of carpet lay opposite. Candles burned on the seats behind him. She decided to take the steep path instead. Fitness beckoned.
“Tell you what, you’re welcome here. I’ll walk tonight.”
The man didn’t answer. As she set off up the path, she heard him chanting softly.
The next morning, anticipating the man was still in the shelter, Mary used the path again on her way out. He was still there, only now sitting-legged, holding a flimsy sheet of crumpled paper between pressed palms, mumbling.
“Good morning,” Mary said.
She observed that the man’s eyes were half closed, with only whites showing. He continued the repetitive mumble, rocking slightly forward and back.
Mary shrugged and continued on her way out.
When she returned later that day, the postbox man had been joined by another. A straw of a man, his ribs showing through his bare chest. He wore Bermuda shorts and roman sandals. Mary noticed that the sandals looked ancient. They had thin cork soles and thin strips of wound leather.
Both men sat cross-legged on carpets. The strawman had brought with him a battered doctor’s satchel. In one corner of the shelter a photo had been propped on the wall. Stacked against it was a thumbed-sized carved wooden figure, and a stuffed black bird.
Dirt had been smeared on the walls, alongside circles a foreign script drawn in charcoal.
“Hollow” the strawman said.
“Are you here for the chariot?” Mary enquired.
“Yos, yos. Thot’s us. Thot’s us indod. ‘ave yow sewn it?”
“Yos, er yes. It’s up there.” She pointed up the hill, where the cable car’s steel rails disappeared into the trees.
The strawman started trembling with excitement. “In the Heavons. Yos, of course. Please, but has it evor descended?”
“Yes. Quite regularly actually. You see, you just push…” but the strawman eagerly cut her off.
“Have you ridden the chariot?
“The cable car? Yes, many times.”
“She is Elijah’s sister!” Strawman exclaimed to Postbox.
“No, I don’t know Elijah. You’ve me mixed up with someone.”
“Is the chariot like a heavonly whirlwind?” Strawman asked.
“No, it’s a Threadneedle and Son Model 2.”
Strawman pondered for a moment. “The Threadneedle Whirlwind! A Chariot of the Gods! A Chariot of fire!” His eyelids flicked quickly in ecstasy. He lifted his chin to the evening sky. His bony throat started warbling a wobbly high tone. He fell to his knees.
Postbox bowed his head at Mary and slumped alongside Strawman to cojoin his mumble with the warbling hum.
Mary giggled and set off up the path to reach her house.
She decided to walk down the path again the next morning. In a shaded section, she lost her balance for a heart-bumbling moment.
“Hi boys” she chirruped at the group of three figures now filling the shelter. She wasn’t entirely sure what to make of the third. It was covered in sack cloth, singing in a dry cough, and hunched at its own offering bowl, which contained a mixture that appeared meaty and wet. Around it was a circle of tiny bones, and skulls of what looked like birds and mice. Mixed in with them were dried husks of insects.
She dressed herself in a nonchalant smile. “Hello again.”
The three ignored her, carrying out their liturgies.
“Any sign of the chariot?”
Sackcloth man rose slowly. From under the hood a rasping voice spoke. “We await a sign. Are you a sign?”
“I don’t think so.”
The sackcloth man took a step closer.
“We need a sign.”
Mary’s nose twisted at the acrid smell the sack emanated. In fact, the entire shelter and surrounds had quickly become quite feculent. It now dawned on her to wonder where they toileted.
She pondered that all day at work.
She returned home as daylight clicked shut its divine doors. She stood watching the three shadows. They had been busy all day. Candles dotted the shelter and the path. The area was strewn with things corraded. Effigies built hastily from sticks lay about the sides of the path. Strange scents wafted up from burning piles of wood chip.
The sackcloth man knelt perfectly still, facing the barred alighting point to the cable car. His back was to Mary, who could only see that his sack shroud was now pulled from his head. On the very top of his bald head, pinches of black soot burned gently. His scalp was littered with jieba scars.
Postbox was now totally naked, sitting hunched in a furry foetal position. He had rolled in what Mary hoped was wet soil.
Strawman was standing, sprinkling water over Postbox from a dog bowl. Strawman looked up at her approach.
“Mary, con you assost us?”
Mary took a little step back. “You know my name?”
“Heltipon here” – he pointed to sackcloth man – “had a vosion towday. He said Mary would call down the chariot to heavon.”
“You are Mary”
“Thon, we beseech you. Call down the chariot.”
Mary looked about the little white walled shelter. She was getting tired of walking up the path. Her writers group would be coming over tomorrow night. What would they make of this mess?
“Look, I’m sorry for your trouble, I really am. You’ve made quite an effort haven’t you?
“We have come a long way Mary.”
“But this is just a cable car that goes to my house.
“Thon lives in heavon?”
“No, I… oh, dear.”
“Take us to heavon on a whirlwind.”
Mary chuckled. “You just push the green button there.”
The strawman unfolded himself to inspect where Mary was pointing. “Whot? Thot botton?”
“Yos. I mean, yes. Push it and the cable car – the chariot – comes down.
All three prostrated themselves in front of the switchbox, heads pressed into the concrete.
Mary picked her way over and around the bodies and pushed the button. Somewhere about them an engine started up, bringing tiny plaintive cries from the prostrate pilgrims. At the top of the rails, a whir and a shudder and then a slow scraping begun.
“Is ut descending Mary?”
“Yes, it will be here in a minute.”
The three began jabbering excitedly, and scritching about the shelter gathering important things.
They spotted the cable car appearing through the trees and out of the night gloom.
“The chariot! It comes! It comes!” strawman screeched.
“Look, it’s just going to take you to my house.”
“Heavon!” they cried.
Mary chuckled. “Well, some have said that. But no, not your heavon.”
The three seemed bewildered.
Postman suddenly shouted in alarm. “Sheol. She intends to send us to the grave!”.
“No, no. My home. I’ve got a lovely new lounge suite.” She looked at their faces distorted in a fear and anger. She saw for the first time that sackcloth’s face was a lumpen mass of boils.
The steel-framed cable car rattled alongside the shelter and clicked to a stop.
“Look, it’s up there. See for yourself. If you like, we can have a cup of tea before you go home.”
The two looked to strawman for a decision. He looked at Mary. “Our vision was that Mary would send us to heavon. You are Mary?”
“Yes. Please, just get on, go to the top and see for yourself.” She lifted a green guard arm and bade them alight.
Strawman nodded, and the three stepped carefully onto the cable car, which quivered. They grasped at handholds. Mary lowered the arm and pressed the green button. The cable car stuttered and began ascending.
“When you get to the top, open the gate and wait outside my front door. But close the gate and press the green button up there to send the chariot back down for me.
“We understand Mary. It is good.” They all waved to her, somewhat apprehensively.
Mary watched as the cable car clacked, steel runners on steel rails, up the slope. The three had knelt on the floor and started preying. They slowly disappeared into the gloom.
She waited for the sound of the motor and wheels to stop, as they had reached the top. Sometimes the damned thing seemed to take ages.
She waited a bit longer. The whirring continued.
Mary started to doubt.
The motor continued to hum and humble. A high note of stress appeared in among its whirring.
It should have stopped by now.
The motor was now rattling slightly, it’s electric coil clacking between the magnetic current.
Mary strained to listen above the noise, for the sound of the unit at the top of the rails.
She could just make humanish sound coming from above her – from above the hilltops. Panicked babble.
She bent out of the shelter, looking into the gloaming. The night sky had gone dark blue. The trees lining the funicular rails had the wild flails of things not born by humans. The soft moon was absent. Razor lines of cloud slashed about the stars and about a tiny black rectangle vibrating in the sky.
The babble from the ether was now a faint, multi-frequency shriek. Or was it the southerly wind among the trees?
Mary peered into the sky. The rectangle could not be discerned. The human sound was silenced.
Mary looked around the little shelter. She tutted to herself and began tidying. She picked up little bronze and stone icons and placed them in a plastic bag. The numerous scraps of hand-scribbled prayers were stacked. Bits of rags and clothing were gingerly placed in a pile. She’d sweep up the burnt offerings later.
As she worked, from the sky came a sound like someone shushing in a theatre. Mary looked up. In the black a polite but angry hush of air was ahead of something falling. She waited. A thick thud hit the funicular rails a few metres above her.
Another thud, like the thing had bounced. She thought of old grapefruit falling from trees. Then the swashing as ma ny small clothy things skated down the rails.
Thuck. Thuck. Thuck. Small clothy bundles splottered about the shelter, hitting the roof, the walls, and the pavement.
A bloodied bundle rolled one up to Mary’s feet. She knelt down, and tightened her eyes at what she saw. It was someone’s hand, wrenched messily at the wrist. The hand was tied into a fist by thin leather shoes lace. Leaving the hand on the concrete she delicately untied the knots. She peeled the dirty red fingers back. Carved hastily and deeply into the flesh of the palm was a word: Help.
The servant problem is the Archilles heel of the rich.It is just about impossible to hire a maid who is smart enough to make a bed but too dumb to wonder why it is full of naked people every morning.
Hunter S Thomspon, A dog took my place
Bronach mated with Pádraig quickly. The cold rough hurry of shame. Among the blocks at the back of the church. She astern the carved three faces of Lugus, urging him on. He leaning into the storm, desperately skinning his thin knees.
Later, Saint Bronach clutched at the grimy church bell rope. The flat clang echoed over Carlingford Lough. The fishermen, save one, Taranis, were already in port. Wives scolded them for ever going out. After the storm softened, Taranis and his coracle washed up, battered and broken.
When they visited the church for Mass, Bronach hung from the rope, cold as a sparse morning’s catch.
How’s Bronagh? Paul Henry asks John Key.
Did you know there was a Saint Bronagh? That’s my wife, a saint. Key beams, and swings his legs childlike on a Green Room chair that is comically too big.
John was chauffeured through the dark winter morning to the studio. A full moon shone cold on prickly flesh emerging from nightclubs. It shone cold on rag-stuffed downtown doorways. John asked his press secretary; Why does anyone need to be up at this hour?
Paul Henry asks, what about NZ troops in Syria? Are we fighting ISIS or not?
Key is warming up. His snorts at Henry. Your purple jacket – this ain’t the Barney show.
Housing shortage and high prices brought about by rapid immigration? How can young people afford the New Zealand dream? What has happened to our nation?
I can’t give you financial advice.
You’re estimated to be worth fifty million. Surely you’ve got some advice?
Watch where you spend it.
Back at his mansion Bronagh perches astern the stone kitchen island, arse up and pyjama pants down. A cup of whiskey tea steams in front of her. The TV is on. Her husband, bright television blues and reds, sniggers cheerily as the rump points toward the kitchen window.
A security detachment wanders outside the kitchen. Three of them on duty. Taking turns at the window to make sure Bronagh is okay. These guys are well paid for the trouble. $75,000 salary. Plus their three commanding officers, logistics and supply. A psychologist to process their angst and anger issues. This Saint costs a million dollars a year. The taxes of seventeen small businesses just to watch her arse and stop her topping herself.
Next door are the Jamiesons. Alan and Sophia. A Greco-roman tabernacle built on the cost of leaking middle class houses. Indirectly you understand. Nothing so dirty as handing over money. Derivatives and forward contracts on prime mortgages that John Key cannot allow to fail.
A threesome of gardeners wanders the lawn, preparing the greenery for the weekend party. They pick at weeds and flatten worm casts.
There’s parties most weekends. Clothing is optional. Cocaine isn’t. The hookers arrive at the front door in ubers. The rough trade parks down the road and enters via the garage.
The rich apply the droped sandwich rule at sex parties, rutting frequently, but quickly.
Alan’s eyes were bright blue, burning like an acetylene gas welder, when he met me at the garage door at one of the parties. He showed me the Masserati and the BMW. He showed me the kitchen, stuffed with chicken and frightened servants. He showed me the lounge with coke on the Mangiarotti occasional tables, and drunk TV stars spread over Massaud sofas. I pointed out the Angus and the Fomison on the walls. He looked at me askew and took me to a bedroom sliding with skinny naked hookers.
I asked for the bathroom. He showed me the guest toilets. There was white vomit in one corner. The other corner held up a naked young woman. She was shouting things incoherent. Shit trickled down the back of her thighs. She was dabbing at herself with uncreased pages of The Luminaries. She held out wet fingers for a hand-up. I lifted her by clammy armpits, helped her flop into the shower, and turned it on hard and hot.
The promising surfer Jordan Young had been at a Jamieson party. A three day search ended when he was found in a tidal pool, drowned, near Muriwai. The famous pathologist Lucan Parkay said his system was jacked with crack. His naked body had no detectable sexual fluids or signs of violence.
I found Lucan in the Jamieson’s den. His pants flapping, misbuttoned and unbuckled. A naked brown woman was passed out on the carpet. Her thin sinewy flanks breathed shallow.
Lucan is an ex-King’s College boy. I handed him a Laphroaig and we clinked glasses. I hate Laphroaig. I dropped out of Dinsdale High. No one came looking for where I washed up, in a puddly mall gutter. Lucan was loose. He confided that it was hard to be confident about Jordan’s condition. Salt cleanses, and rocks tear more terribly than fingernails.
He began a wet chuckle, whiskey spittle at the corner of his mouth, and tears in his eyes. You know, he said, Jordan’s mother came to the inquest. She kept sobbing about a mouse. I figured she was on citalopram or something. Pitied her husband. That stuff fucks your sex drive. I found out later ‘mouse’ was the nickname she’d given her youngest boy.
Parnell’s ambivalence is naked. Its people run and ruin the lives of others at a distance. If they come close, at weekends, they use protection: gloves and condoms. Parnell hates the people it fucks. Despoliation is quick and forgotten in the miasma of alcohol and cocaine.
Bronach. In Celtic, it means “sorrow”.